Hoje tô sem paciência, vou digitar em pt mesmo.

Mano, tô numa fase meio antissocial, pois vejo que não tenho relação com ninguém.
Não quero amizade superficial com ninguém, não quero namoros superficiais, não quero gente superficial. Prefiro estar sozinho.

Eu sei que isso parece ser meio emo, mas foda-se, tô cansado.
Eu nunca vou conseguir ser 'consistente' em nada. Nunca vou conseguir ter um namoro duradouro, nunca vou conseguir terminar nada, pois perco interesse muito fácil pelas coisas e pelas pessoas.

Tudo é um nada.

Eu sei que isso é só uma fase 'pós-adolescência', mas foda-se, a vida não presta mesmo.

My life is empty

My life resumes in Computer -> College > Computer -> College an endless cycle to death.
This worries me because I feel that I'm losing my religion my time of life.

One more day and I'm here for another miserable day of poverty with a fucking sinusitis due to the moldy walls of my dark room.

The difficulties of YMPB in college

Today, something disturbed me: a high school classmate.

While I try live with the minimium of the minimium due to being child of salaried parents, She has a whole structure to finish his college of Medicine, take care of the body and at the same time don't need to work, being able to make annual trips abroad and have a healthy relationship (obviously with a rich dude).

While I spend an much time in public transportation, she drive a car.

Are two people who share the same air, but who have totally different lifestyle  due to the existing inequality of status. 

In Brazil, unfortunately, if you dont do college of medicine and you're poor, so you're just a piece of manure. 

Besides this, the College will do away with all the time I have, so I will not allow myself study with quality for a contest or do something to earn money and get out of this miserable life. 

Many of my classroom doesn't know how to write a line of code (and don't even know the real reason that led them to choose the course), only those who did technical courses have a sense of what the area looks like. The vast majority (70%, being very optimistic) will give up the course before finishing it. And the time passing, leaving us older and having done nothing to get out of the miserable life. This is the land of the affluent where the poor spend hard all his life. 

I've seen all those hotties from college and I realize that I'm just a poor guy on a course where 95% are virgin males and then I end the day with masturbation.

I can't take this anymore. 

Welcome

The last time that I tried create a blog for speak about of difficulties of a YMPB (Young man poor and beta) I gave up because I only write when I am frustrated with something.

However, I decided that I will try write here whenever I need to vent, this serves as therapy.

So, to start, I am 19 years old (next month I am 20), I'm studying Computer Science and my hobby is Financial Market.

I'm one more poor in the Brazil trying to find a way out of this life of shit.

I hope that someone read this someday.

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